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Saturday, October 20, 2012

A Letter to the Universe

I have given the Universe my letter of resignation.

Dear Universe,

I no longer want to know or see. I have seen and known enough thanks to you. The world is filled with too much hate today it seems. The kind that kills love. It is too strong and finds to much joy in it. Eve cannot be reborn, nor can Adam inside a womb that is filled with so much distrust. I have witnessed too much pain to purge in this world. Drowned is hope, the kind that makes believers. Without them all is lost.

So much selfishness in this world. The kind that forever destroys the bonds of love that are forming the new kind of love needed so badly. The veins of hate are too deep and its tainted blood flows strongly through them. The kind of flow that drowns all things beautiful and wilts the petals of baby lotuses.

The kind of force that is insensitive to the tears of children, to the cries of mothers who try to hold them and protect them. Pain is necessary but the kind that lives on this planet right now is not the pain originally intended for our hearts to is breed from years of evil. A swift sword that goes straight to the flow of force from Heaven. Disconnecting, damaging and making all believe its full of God when God is the last thing included.

Tangled is the river of life. Deception is alive everywhere. Showing its fold of color only to prove its greatness.

I have seen the plan. I have tasted it, found its color in the rainbow unseen. I can find it when I look, but looking is too painful. Taken so high only to be dropped further. My wings are tired. I wait for a wind that does not come. Only faint scents of you remain. I now see the world in shades of gray.

Where are you Universe? I can't feel you anymore. Broken is the connection to here and now. Why would you allow this to happen? Why would you let hate win? How can we birth a new world in the womb of hate and abort the new world possible to be born out of love? Why do you reward greed and love of self? and forsake the joint effort of those willing to go further? Why haven't you replaced our world with the kind you ask us to seek within?

You speak of free will, but why is it that free will mostly sides with doubt, hate and denial. For these reasons I must leave and no longer participate in your plan. I don't believe in it anymore. You've taught me a language no one else speaks and I'm tired of talking to myself. I have found that which you say is so rare, and even here hate wins. I can't side with this anymore.

You bring the people together and all they do is fight. You show them love and they choose to turn their face from its light when it becomes personal. You share a universal thread of unity yet hearts are separated everywhere. You say what we give you will come back, and I have given love all I can and still I find pain. Why? Is love a lie? Have you created it to teach us a lesson that only we can learn? I don't want to take that class anymore because I have majored in it my whole life and I have found the treasures which have obviously lost value in this changing market of what is treasured and what is thrown away.

You show me potential and a vision of higher places yet you have failed to let the bridge be built. Are we not deserving now? and if not now when? Because now sure feels like its a great time. Are you listening Universe? because sometimes I wonder if my prayers disappear with the smoke under the star filled sky.

I've watched the signs and always trusted you. I've lead my life according to your plan. Sacrificing along the way and now I wonder if that was your plan or someone elses. Because I do see and believe now that something else knows your ways and imitates you to lead into other directions that are not yours. Your plan has been broken into and the very space you have always shared as sacred has been violated by a force that is strange, unfamiliar, dark and foreign. Why Universe you would let this happen is beyond my understanding and I choose not to try. I have purged this force over and over, walked straight into it and I am strong in my light because of you yet here, inside this most sacred space I find this darkness and now I cannot understand how you have allowed this to happen. Why would you create this only to destroy it? Why would you allow the temple to be destroyed like this?

You allowed Eve to intervene. I saw the letters, the code was there. I know it well. I saw the connection between assuming, observing, being and forgiving........and reaching out. But there is no hand to grasp dear Universe. Why do you not reach out to pull us out of this world as it is now?

Thank you for what you have taught me. Thank you for what you have shared with me, for the space that is divine and all you have shown me. I now know why statues weep. I've spent enough time in the garden to observe.

If you are listening Universe I offer one last prayer to you. Let the kind of love that is needed so badly in this world be born in hearts everywhere. Let trust come back between men and women, between men and men, between women and women, between child and adult, between humans and animals, between all and the planet. Let love fill us and defeat the force of hate. Let it find no joy in destroying that love anymore. Let each of us support and encourage that love between those who feel it so that it too may grow within us.

I have nothing else to offer the world except this prayer.

Respectfully yours,

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Purging the Hate, Sowing the Love

Does a wolf apologize after it bites?

Sometimes we have to bite. It is required to purge out what you don't want in your life. You have to focus your emotion into a laser that cuts right through all the garbage. There is nothing wrong with getting angry when that anger is clear and direct and can stay that way and not turn into a raging wildfire. However wildfires are needed in nature to clear large amounts of undergrowth. So it all has a purpose and either way it is clearing ground.

What lies inside you right now as you read this that keeps you from letting love in? C'mon not the we are only love so I don't have to do anything thing....... the kind of love that takes your breath away, that lights you up, that connects your soul to the power source directly. Do you have that in your life? If not why? If so are you tending to it so it deepens and spreads out into the world?

Bite whatever tries to stop the feeling. See it for what it is. A kind of distraction and self sabotage no matter what form it arrives in, and many forms it will. The kind of hate that hates that powerful juicy love and wants to disrupt it, break it up, distort it, steal it and destroy it. Identify it, see it for what it is, and extract it. If it manifests in someone you love you have to remind them who they are and extract the love out. Hate can't stay when love is in bloom. Its like turning a light on in the room, the darkness has no place to be.

So the New Moon yesterday on the 15th of October was all about purging that which no longer belongs. Deep healing on soul levels. Not just releasing that which you no longer want in your life but PURGING them out.... like a purged river. Gone. Identify and extract. Know what you want and own it. No more dreaming, time for being it. Think about any pain you have moving through you right now be it physical, mental, emotional, spiritual.... where does it live within your body and how can you extract it, purge it so those biological memories that live within your biology can go. You don't need them anymore. It is time for deep love, the kind that makes you know and see further. The kind that hate loves to hate. Make room. Clean house. Create a void for it to grow. Know what you want. Really know. Then hunt it down with love. Put all of what you are into it and when you come up against yourself in whatever way shape or form that takes, see it for what it is and keep going!! We are learning to communicate with others on a soul level. This requires clarity, grounded love and the ability to face the demons you create inside yourself. Say no to the distractions, say yes to what lights you up.

Here are a few words on that energy from Shima Maria Yraceburu of Yraceburu Earthwisdom.

So do you get it now? All the hate that manifests in your life is coming from inside you asking for you to plow through it so it can heal and love can finally fill you from top to bottom, Heaven & Earth. Can you keep going when it surfaces? Can you continue flying with your wings spread or does it take the wind out of them and cause you to ground what should be soaring?

As I write this the Earth moves beneath me. Confirming all of it.

Just how connected are you really? How connected to all can you imagine yourself to be? That's how connected you are. The more love you give, the more Heaven grows. Feeling your connection to all that is creates that for you because it is you.

As women are lit up in love, the Earth lights up in love and she changes. The world changes. Not in a controlled demolition way........... but in the true way. Wiping out outdated power structures because nothing is more powerful then nature. No amount of hate can deter that. Nothing is more powerful then nature and control as they may to keep a lid on it.... it is impossible.

You want to change the world....... you'll have to meet hate head on as the guardian of the doorway into love. You'll have to see it for what it is and keep going. You'll have to purge out the old painful memories and make room for new. You'll have to be a warrior ready to face it no matter where it manifests. The hardest being in those we love deeply. That is the most challenging place and it waits for the last card. That's when you apply all the love you are and keep going. It takes a strong person to do that. To see hate where it doesn't belong and to take it head on until it dissipates. Have you ever loved someone through their own hate? Not easy to stand your ground but you must. You are a warrior of love and this is your calling. To find it in the most hateful places.

Deep healing takes deep love. Deep hate needs deep love. Deep generational wounds, cycles that span centuries........that live within your very DNA. How do you purge those? Deep love. Real strong deep love. Soul love. The kind that will tie you up when you need to be tied up and spank the common sense back into you and purge the hate from you. That kind of love.

Up for the job? Too bad cause that's whats being asked of you even if you aren't. Your body is getting ready for the greatest event of your life.

I don't know why its you. But it is. I didn't ask for it to be. I didn't see how deep this is or see it coming. But I can feel it and I know it. Ignited beyond fire. Why? I can only imagine as I walk forward blindfolded unable to dream this one. Its uncharted territory. Ive never been here. Its up to you to walk with me. I can only go as far as you can. Blaze the trail. Light it up and share. Let's conquer the hate together side by side. The world needs you. The world needs your courage and your deep love. It needs you to let it in, to own it and to know it when you find it in another.